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Wow, page views seem to rack up quite quickly now a days. I would like to thank you guys for checking out my terrible art work.

Just want to let people know how I'm doing. And overall, I can tell you, not so great. I work every day of the week, and I feel so vastly inferior to the skill that the best people in the school have to offer...I just don't feel like I'll ever get there. I hate that I won't be able to do comics or any real art that I want to, and I think this school and the money its costs is eating me up inside. I feel so much stress that I get really sick. I tried talking to my mom about it, and she said that I could go somewhere else if I really wanted to...but I've always though of myself as someone who doesn't quit something. I just can't help but to look at how good I have to be in in a few months...I cant help but feel like crap around people my same age who are doing leaps and bounds above me. I also feel like I got lucky with "Fish Market" and that Nothing I ever do will ever read that way again...and on topic, my traditional stuff is crap. I will like a piece but immediately hate it right after...I want to go to the workshops and draw more and try to see myself getting better but I almost feel like I am 100 years too early to even be thinking about being here...and I know I'm not in the lowest percentile of my class, but I feel like shit knowing my art has grades...I feel like shit knowing what I'm doing is timed as well...I think I have busted out some great pieces because of it yeah, but I also had a lot of help with those, so I don't really feel like they were entirely "me." I know the goal of school is to improve yourself and all that jazz, but I don't really feel like I'm improving, just doing things that are all at my level. And whenever I get homework I want to crawl under a whole and just die, knowing that my social life and happiness will be gone...


I've seen the best work here and I am convinced that they have always been THAT good...and they are just simply getting used to the tools...I feel like I'm getting used to my tools but nothing is as clear or as awesome as theirs. I want to accomplish my dream, but it seems like my dream isn't ever going to come to me, and that I am always destined to be someone who failed at their dreams...and I am thankful for people trying to disprove this but I can't help but feel horrible every day I draw..It's like drawing and making comics has just become stressful. And I also realize that many great people have gone through what I am going through...but they can self re-affirm themselves with their teachers and grades proving that they are the best, but I feel so much like "I should just drop out."

I don't want to quit getting a higher education, but I feel so damn bad all the time. I've just been having a bad day after a bad day, EVERY DAY. Pets die, my mother is stressing out about work, and having to pay for things here, I can't help but to spend lots of money on paint and a class I DON'T want to do. Lately I had Bobby Chiu's videos really help me out in terms of being depressed, but I feel like those don't even work anymore.

I wake up each day dreading the day. I hate that. I really do. Sorry for anyone reading this rant, I just really need something that can convince me that I'm not just wasting my time.

Well I want to see if this actually ends up working out.

For now I'm doing some free character sketches, as well as some inked.

Message me here, or by my email if you are interested.

Sup guys

Not much to update, besides the fact that I'm still working hard...even on break. Sometimes I get the feeling no matter how hard I push, that I'll never get there...y'know?

Sides that, things are going pretty good, got an A- on my Analysis of Form class, which was Taught by Zimou Tan (Everyone knows how tough but helpful he is), so thats coo'.

Other then that, I have been experimenting with different media, to find what I like in terms of inking and painting. So far I like brush and Traditional Quill pen *G-Pen nib*, microns for doodles, and digital inking in PS and OC. But boy, let me tell ya'. ME and photoshop have this weird sort of Hate-love relationship. Some days its my best friend, and others its saying 'NO ARTS TU DAY THNK U'.

Going back to class on the 3rd, and moving back to San fran on the First (September) So forgive me if I'm kind of gone for a bit.